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Regarding the Month after April

For those of you who got Ned's e-mail about the person with the name of the month that comes after APRIL (herinafer After April)the other day, I have this to say...

What the hell?

I understand that she doesn't want people out there slandering her and talking shit about her. Totally reasonable. What I don't understand is why she felt the need to point fingers at Presley and I for apparently making her Lit Mag experience unpleasant. High school sucked for everyone. I don't go around blaming people for certain unpleasant times that I may have had in Lit Mag-- or at other times in high school for that matter. I barely remember who was in lit mag. I certainly don't remember doing anything to her to make her time there bad.

I guess I wasn't always the nicest person in high school, but anything I may have said or done to make After April unhappy wasn't out of malice or animosity. It was probably borne of my own uphappiness and desire to fit in. Lit Mag didn't always feel like home to me either, and so maybe After April should be a little more careful when she points her finger at people. Things aren't always the way they look.

Well, I am going to jump into the fray here....

I do feel uneasy with this whole thing. I'm resisting the urge to delete any mention of this off the website, but I feel that it wouldn't be the right thing to do. However, I wanted to resolve this adequately, without just ignoring it.

I sent a message to this person, apologizing for allowing it to occur, especially with FULL NAMES. I don't use my real name on this website, because of a desire to keep my "professional" life separate. I think we owe anyone else the same anonymity.

As for singling out Sara or Lisa, or whomever... I don't know the circumstances surrounding LitMag, or whatever happened-- I do know that it was like 7 years ago, and I would politely suggest that we all open our hearts a little. Forgive, forget, and move on.

I myself can be catty or hold grudges (NO, SURELY NOT, NED!) beyond a healthy point, and it's not good. It's just not good.

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Because I'm feeling romantic with the whole Valentines thing, I just want to say that I love you all, including Romo for starting this whole bullshit in the first place. And I wish everyone from Williamsville East High School nothing but the best. Because there are a lot of assholes out there, and... i lost my train of thought. shit.

this has been such a "My So Called Life" moment

jeff? how come you sign 'j' so we don't know who you are?

no ,so April or other people like her won't jump on my back for anything stupid i may say

everyone else has aliases. mine's just less creative

ha

After April. yes. well sara, i think she mentioned you because she didn't realize that my alias was mine and perhaps she singled you out. anyway-- i have been certainly sweating and mulling over the whole situation. though, on one hand, sara, i totally know what you mean, high school was a hellish time for everyone who was trying to get their footing and i think we found good amounts of solace in each other as outlanderish types and as danno pointed out to me, we weren't the pointers and maker funners ofs in high school. though i do think that people who expressed an impenetrability as AA did, an ability to not need a group of friends (...) was what i couldn't deal with. but it was years ago and debating it now seems silly.

however, as silly as debating it now seems, it seems equally silly in retrospect that we're still laughing over a seven year old joke which is where i totally feel AA's anger. it stupid silliness on our parts, however, that's usually the soil where good dorky jokes grow from.

i got a personal note from AA different perhaps from everyone else perhaps because what i said was unebelievably cruel. and i am sure that i wont soon forget the feeling in my stomach of someone finding out what i've said, but, and this i am sure of, i wil not stop making fun of people. so am i refromed? no. have i elarned a lesson here today? yes, cover your shit up better. but am i better for it all? no. i'm an asshole who got caught saying what i shouldn't have.

luckily, we've made a very nice little website where common asshole can get together and mudsling at the ones we love. and how.

you know, that last part sounded more callouse than i thought it would. did i mention that i really do feel bad for all this, what abut you guys do you think that feeling guilty over something like this is a wasted emotion because ti doesn't restore anything or do you feel as if everyone is fallable and to expect anything else is unrealistic? i am torn.

um...i feel bad. and embarassed. luckily i'm only at fault for not stopping the rant...but even though i witnessed it without participating, ... well you get the point.

the embarassing part is the fact that we were talking about high school ... i mean, seriously guys.

let's all turn our brains back to the summer of 2001 when Suckahs! was born. remember Ned ranting on and on about using people's real names on the site and the "use my alias, damnit" argument that ensued ::ahem:: romo ::ahem::?? well maybe now we can learn that valuable lesson Ned was trying to teach: the web is public, strangers will read it, google will search it, people we trash because it makes us giggle for one second will find it and be hurt/pissed/postal and then we're the assholes.

the end.

Nice blog.